Currently I’m sitting in bed trying to juggle writing my essay, watching an episode of ‘smallville’ and write this post at the same time. I probably shouldn’t be doing so many things, but i can’t help it. I’m supposed to be the hardworking student having everything done before monday’s class, but not feeling 100% has made me mentally shut off. It doesn’t help that I have been completely physically unmotivated, which doesn’t help my state of my mind. Why does assessment period and professional placement always happen when Winter is also looming? I am quite certain I will be getting sick soon. Very soon.
This week has felt like such a long, long week. I can’t remember the last time i felt so busy and overwhelmed with so many things. To be honest, I feel like I’ve been letting down a lot of people around me… being late to appointments, trying to say ‘yes’ to people, missing my group meeting, overstepping and overdoing… just everything has felt ‘too much’. I’ve apologised so many times this week, it doesn’t even feel like a word anymore.
It’s been a long time. I know it’s been a long time.
But I’ve been here. I’ve been sitting here trying to figure out how to come back to all of this… how to continue this or start all over again. There have been so many times where I have sat in front of the computer screen, trying to figure out what to write… but the ‘fear’ has been stopping me. It feels like it’s been a long time, and it has.
woah. it’s been an emotional past few weeks since I have written a #joyMemories post. Sorry lovelies, I haven’t been feeling mentally well and this week assessment period made everything very stressful very quickly. I feel so tired and exhausted… unable to fit in the time to cook my weekly family dinners which i’m missing a lot. But i’m grateful for the next 3 weeks as I won’t have Uni classes, so I can rest a little and take things slower. Something i’m looking forward to is Winter finally coming to an end. I honestly couldn’t be more excited to welcome spring with open arms, because that means I can start planning road trips again. Continue reading →
I like to call this raw tart a mix between a breakfast and dessert because I’m using weetbix, but it’s in the form of a tart! It’s a fancy, indulgent but healthy breakfast – with a fudgy and creamy texture from the sweet medjool dates and yoghurt. Don’t worry, it’s quite simple to make because most of the directions uses the food processor or it’s scooping yoghurt into the tart case. You can add any kind of fresh fruit or crumble/muesli mix to garnish on top… there really is so many flavour combinations to create with this raw tart. ♥ Happy breakfast lovelies.
I can’t believe it’s already August. The end of year is coming in 4 months. how crazy does that sound? Before you know, christmas will be here… and then new new years… and then goodbye 2016! woah. I don’t think i’m mentally ready for that to be honest. Continue reading →
i’ve spent this sunday doing absolutely nothing, when I really should have studied. I didn’t get through all my readings, and I have Uni tomorrow (oh dear). The truth is, i’ve been so tired lately and my anxiety has been pretty crippling. I’m not too sure what it is, or why I am feeling this way – but my heart doesn’t feel settled. My emotions have been up and down like a rollercoaster. Continue reading →
Uni starts again next week, and I feel pretty nervous. I don’t know why i am feeling this way to be honest. When i finished last semester, I made the decision to continue part time study – and I thinkI feel at peace with this conclusion… but then why do i feel the need to explain myself to some people? or feel uncomfortable with more ‘freedom’ and ‘time’ on my hands? It reminds me of the way i felt a few weeks ago with my holidays; that sense of doubt? It’s a strange feeling.
This week has been filled with ups and downs – at times quite emotional, and other times I am overwhelmed with the support i have behind me. The fact that I can feel thankful for these small moments, is a blessing and a miracle for me. There is always good and bad in life, and though the good takes extra effort for me to see and cherish – i hope that I will hold onto these moments to pull me through. I only have one week left of holidays now – so my focus is to enjoy this next week. I want to soak up the extra time I have to do the things i want to do… the things that make me happy.